Just one step.....

It was a few months back.  I was sitting in my car, in tears.  Most likely having a huge anxiety attack. I picked up the phone and called the two people who know me the best, Mom and Dad.  After minutes of verbal diarrhea, my dad gave me the best and most simple advice.  He said 'LL, you just have to put one foot in front of the other.  Even when it is hard.  Just keeping putting one foot in front of the other.'  

It was like a light clicked in my brain (finally!).  I was SO sick of letting my emotions control me.  I was SO sick of my depression overwhelming me.  The years of tearing myself down mentally and the damage I did on myself esteem.  I was DONE.   This time, I knew I was ready to pick myself up and get back to the laid back-fun loving LL, except I want to call her LL 2.0. 

I tell myself this every morning.

Dealing with depression and anxiety, reminds me of someone recovering from an addiction.  People kept offering help, I would refuse or I would half heartily attempt to control my emotions.   But, I would go back to my 'ways' harder than before.  Kind of like an alcoholic, it would be a complete binge of emotions.....





I refuse to use a lab made antidepressant or anxiety medication.  That is just damaging your body even more. It is masking the problem, not dealing with it.  I needed to find a way to boost my endorphins and a healthy way at that. I needed to change the way I view life and myself completely.  A whole lifestyle change.  It starts with eating clean and becoming strong through rigorous exercise. 

I learned to do this....stay tuned for my own pictures.

This is how one should view themselves....STRONG.

Hottie Husband, has been a big support and help.  I just wasn't ready in the past to join his passion 100%.   But, the dark clouds have cleared and I turned to Hottie Husband for full support.   He has been Paleo for over a year and has been doing Crossfit for 2 years.  H.H. is also on the Crossfit competitive team and has just a fab view of life.   I really admire his drive.  (I will discuss paleo and eating clean in future blogs).

INSPIRATION!

 

 After several months of post on Facebook, friends asking me about recipes, and my training.  I have decided to write a blog and share with you how an Ordinary Girl can live 'clean' and healthy.  I want you to know, that you don't need a lot of money to eat clean or to join some expensive Crossfit gym to be successful in your health.  You just have to WANT it.